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The Craving

Nearly ten years ago I used to go about like a mad man searching for the love of my life and I could never co relate to any human being then or any other. I never could understand what it is that I wanted to see or relate to in my life. I was completely distraught and had absolutely no clue what it is I was after then. That was then my search and quest for the spiritual. My wife used to say that if there was some woman in my life she could fight it but some invisible God she could not fight at all. Everyday was a nightmare then. I roamed about the streets and used up so many contacts searching for God. The ones that I visited could never satisfy my deep craving for the Lord. It was the most horrendous time for the family then. They had to face my uncontrollable anger then. I changed Gurus after Gurus just to find out whether the newer one could take me ahead in my quest. I never slept, never ate well, anger seemed to ride me all day long. Why that anger was there I could never fathom. ...

Distorted History

In my recent visit to Siem Reap in Cambodia I came across a very interesting phenomenon. Almost all of the temples which were of Hindu origin had been changed to Buddhist beliefs and even the figurines had turned Buddhists. Take the case of the churning of the ocean which is a Hindu myth, the Buddhist rulers had removed the heads of the Gods and the Demons who did the churning and replaced them with Buddhist demi gods and devils heads. Citing reasons that the original heads were vandalized by miscreants. Surely the newer heads could have been close to original ones but alas it is not so. There are 4 million tourists which visit these famous temples and are fed by ill educated guides who have very little regards for the history of that place. Their job is to create an aura that the Buddhist were great builders and the original deity inside the temple is the Buddha. The largest and the best maintained temple is the Angkor Vat which starts with the Hindu epics of Ramayana, Mahabharata and...

Greed

Yesterday I was watching the movie Wall Street and the hero talks about greed and how important it is to be greedy to succeed. Have you noticed we are never satisfied with what we have and always crave for more than what we get? If it is the salary that we get, we need more than that. If it is wealth, then more than what we have. Similarly in marriage as well, we want to own our spouses and consider them as a personal property. There is always the upside of greed but there is a never considered down side too. When we become greedy we are not only taking what we don't deserve but make all others less fortunate and poor. Say for example when we make the presentations at the clients place as if it is our own brain-work, we are actually antagonizing a lot of our deserving colleagues. The client thinks you to be super brilliant but forgets to acknowledge the true people around that deed. Take the case of one of the top companies in India whose mentor is praised to the heavens for his si...

Where Love Has Gone?

When a child is born, the mother takes care of the child but as the child grows up he moves about in the world with hardly any thought of the mother. He then gathers other attachments and looses the ones he had before. Just the way we discard the clothes which are worn out or that we have outgrown. Such is the frailty of relationships in life. We loose a lot of friends and relatives in life. They later only become our past acquaintances which we may see sometimes in real or virtual life. But our bonding has deteriorated far beyond repair so we just say hello and move on. God is our father whom we tend to forget once we have a body and later we move on with our stronger relationship with our parents, school friends, then it is collage mates, then girl friends or boy friends, spouses and kids and then grand children and so on. Our business and other relationships also exist. Once old age starts up and we feel the need for some solace we again move towards this once forgotten friend calle...

Fear & God

When we were small our parents told us not to do certain things otherwise the ghost/devil will come and take us. We obeyed our parents because we were afraid. We never entered a room since the devil lived there. Even darkness troubled us so we never dared step out in the dark. At school the tall and hefty boy in class teased you but you dare not tell the teacher about him since you were afraid of being trashed by him. At school and college we were always afraid of getting less marks and loosing the ranks. When we went to work we were always afraid of loosing the job or our position to a newer recruit. We looked forward to our annual leave but were afraid that some last moment work will hold us up. Also when it was time for annual appraisal we were in the best of behavior and pandered to our bosses. Now as we look at our family in progression we are always thinking about the mortgages and monthly installments. Then it is about our children and spouses too. Can we provide for them in the...

Attachments & Detachment!

Today I was asked by my disciple whether she could go to someplace far and settle down there-in the "happily ever after" way? I told her that the first thing that she would do would be to think about her daughter and how she was doing in life and that would never allow her to be free or happy anywhere. When she is in school she would have to think about her education, then it would be about higher studies, then about her job, then marriage, then her kids, then her divorce or unhappy married life, then her life and never would she be ever free. Now just imagine this- when do you think you will be free from these mundane stuff in life for spiritual goals? Never. Not in this life atleast! So don't kid yourself and say that you want to get realized in this life. Your life revolves around your family, friends, house, job, career, parents, life goals, travel and every other worldly stuff besides God! First it is all about settling down in life and then it is about God. God has ...

Giving & Asking!

This whole month is being celebrated all about giving. Giving free meals, giving donations, giving back to society and giving love. There are many types of givers so I shall give you an idea about them. The highest type of giver is the one who gives and has no idea he has given, has no sense of giving and no ownership about the act or its fruits too. The middling type is the one who gives and knows that he has given, has a clear idea how much it is and where and when also. He cares about the fruits and is bothered that it has gone to the right place or person too. He needs accounts and always mentions about it to one and all. He feels the ownership of giving and granting to the have-nots. He feels mighty pleased at himself for giving and counts the next time also how much he can do good to the society. The lowest class are those who give reluctantly after coercion and by force only.They feel the others do not deserve their generosity. They never seem to let go of the things that they h...